I am learning to live a life of expectancy. Living life in a space where I not only hope for good things, but I boldly expect them to happen.
I haven’t always been this bold, however. Several years ago, 3 ½ to be exact, I was consumed by fear. Afraid of my future and my now. Feeling conflicted, confused, and disoriented, not knowing whether to look left or to look right, I became tired of being tired. In my darkest moments, I asked God to help me and to show me, and that’s when I began to look up.
I made a conscious decision to keep my eyes fixed above and I surrendered everything. I began to trust at a deeper level, embracing the idea to expect the good each day.
At first, my shift was gradual. I was expecting good things some days, but then others my focus was off. But slowly, each day I began to transform from the inside out, within my soul and my heart. In time, I came to the epiphany that surrendering was the key, and I was elated I had found it!
I’ve learned so much about navigating through difficulties since then. So much so, that today, like the “Monday morning quarterback”, I attempt to offer hindsight solutions to my old problems. A lot of good that does now.
Today, I just keep moving, following the trail set before me, trusting even when I cannot see, and keeping my eyes on the prize with an expectant heart.